"just the girls"...

This quote is from Ella Jane. At 1:30AM.





Setting the scene...





Sara wakes for the 2nd time at 12:45am. I go in to console and quickly realize it will do no good. I'll need a distraction. I make my way to the living room so as not to wake the rest of the crew. Baby Newton is playing and who walks in but Ella Jane. I beckon her to come to me and with a sweet smile on my face she falls into my lap. I tell her it's the middle of the night and then she hops over to the couch telling me in a very chipper voice that it's "just the girls, having girl time." Technically, I suppose she's right although I would prefer our girl time to involve a midday treat at Starbucks.

Sara went to bed about 15 minutes ago and so far so good. I picked her up and then bent down to get her blankies and paci and when I did I was leaning forward a little and I felt her grab onto me a little tighter. I knew I wasn't going to drop her, but instinctively she grabbed on.

I immediately thought of God and his grip on me. Sometimes it feels as if I might be dropped but that is never God's intention. And He would never trip up and accidentaly drop me either. What I found amazing and comforting was this scenario play out in my life with Sara. I'm constantly picking her up and putting her down. Most of the time she's just along for the ride; even when I bend down to get something it doesn't seem to faze her, she knows we'll get back up. She knows me and trusts me.

Tonight I feel like it's God beckoning to me, asking me to trust Him, to hang onto Him. Thank you Lord. And thank you Ella Jane. Time well spent...even at 1:30am.