Letting go...

...and learning to trust.

During our short stint of spring like weather we got outside for some fun playtime. We said hello to the scooters (who I think forgot who we were after all this time inside) and took off for the culdesac. A few minutes of that and MJ and EJ wanted to ride their bikes. I'm just not so kean on the whole bike thing. Too stressful. Are they going to fall? Will they crack their head? Too stressful.

Reluctantly, I agreed and lifted the monsters down from their ceiling hooks in the garage. By the way as a result of the bike riding, I had to take Sara out of the Moby (she was not happy) and put her in the little green push car. Which she loved. She squealed. And giggled. And carried on and on. Oh how I wish I had a video camera. It was precious.

But anyway, back to the bike riding. Matthew was deadset on learning to ride and he thought that since he had mastered the balance on the scooter perhaps he could learn the bike as well. He had a point. So, I grabbed the back of the seat like you're supposed to and took a few steps with him. And he took off. He totally got it. Except that after I let go I was afraid he'd fall and ran after him (like two steps) to grab the bike again. "Whew, let's take a break there Matthew." He was all geared up to go again and I was so nervous to let him try. What if he fell? How long am I supposed to hold on? What if I let go to soon? Of course we hooped and hollered..."YOU DID IT!!!" and it truly was so exciting. In that moment I was remembering the time when I first learned how to ride a bike; how my mom held onto the back of that pink banana seat and finally let go...oh the sheer joy I felt. I had done it. I couldn't help but wonder the same for him. Would he remember this?

So I am letting go and learning to trust... his judgement, his instincts and his ability to learn.

**On a sidenote, Ella Jane has demonstrated for me that she knows how to hulahoop and it is HYSTERICAL. We don't have a hulahoop mind you so it's just her moving her ENTIRE body. Oh, my goodness, it's so funny.